Trying to Get Up...

... after i fell.

Words couldn't describe how i am now and how i'm feeling now..
Sometimes, i even blamed myself.
In just 1 month time, seriously what can i ever do?
Time is really challenging me now..

But somehow, there were times where i had a strong feeling, yea a strong one,
to SKIPPED school!!
I know everyone thinks going to school is completely useless now..
And so do i think it that way..
Thinking bout it, the problem is not bout that..
But, deep inside me i feel that EVERTHING seemed to be fading away in me like literally..
Especially in class :(
That's the worst time for me to try to not making friends at this stage, but having a close friend of my own..
I know i have hashima with me sometimes, but it is a different thing when it comes to class friends.. wait, this is confusing i know..
Sometimes, i would think the problem is me to didnt have the urge to get up to people and talk to them.. i know but i'm different and it is very tough for me to ever do so..
But, i suddenly reliazed that, if i dont ever to that, i'll be left out all alone!!
Now, this is what i called the harsh and sabotaged world :(

Despite that, i'm trying my very best, well, pouring out everything in me,
for... the sake of SPM!!!
And is very, yea infact very difficult to sit down and study like literally really studying..
Well, i have really no idea what God has for me, all i got to do it, believe in myself and follow my heart wherever it leads me to..

Amen.

-TeQueiro-